The World Changes

I feel like I'm not able to speak normally anymore. I have so many thought in my head that when I start to speak, all of these things mix together and I speak absolute craps. And some of those thoughts are not even possible to describe. They're just some internal feelings, something I see live in my head but I can't explain it to others. If I could paint, I could put all that mind tangle on a canvas. And you could stare at that picture and feel that feeling, which I expressed by that "art" ...

 

There were so many debates about the year 2012. According to a lot of people, the apocalypse was supposed to come. Some people didn't believe it and others started to behave hysterical and they were thinking about suicide. Devastating tsunami and asteroids didn't come at last. However something changed. Somehow I feel something is different than before. For example think about the extremely hot summer this year or the refugees madness. Many people became vegan (at least on the instagram). So many (even very young) people started to travel  - not only for a week to Croatia or Italy, but also for a year to get new experiences in Asia or America. Or notice how many people changed their lifestyle, started to be interested in health, alternative medicine ...

The world changes. I feel it!

 
I felt the change this year the most. This year - and it's not its end yet at all - was special. I traveled a lot - I visited Netherlands, England, Germany, Bosnia, Montenegro and Albania, we bought a dog, I started to care more about the healthy lifestyle, I started to work on myself (physically and menatally too), I lost some weight, I increased my confidence, I met aa lot of interesting people, I found out what I want to become when "I'll be a big girl", I enjoyed the best parties and I gained a lot of new memories and experiences. And I also started noticing all of those little things around us. For example the crazy system of collecting the school marks, useless degrees and papers. Or how crazy amount of chemicals we put in our bodies to be "healthy" - the medicines, cosmetimes or the wanna-be healthy food, that actually destroys our health.

I think I experienced the best and the worst moments this year - the moments when I was absolutely down and the moments when I wanted to cry because od the happines because I realized how the world is fucking beautiful and I was undesribably grateful for being here and enjoying these moments. For exampe when I was rafting in Bosnia, I was watching the beautiful nature and the cold crystal clear water was splaching into my face. Or when I was screaming at the roller coaster in Brighton - frightened but totally happy. Or when we were swimming during the sunset in Montenegro.

But you can find these little things in every day life, everywhere and in every part of the year. I have this amazing feeling of the gratitude when we laugh at school at something and I realize how great people my classmates are, I have the same awesome mood when I finish hard workout, when I challenge myself, when I finish reading a good book, when I look at old photos and remember the old memories or when I lean out from the window and I feel the winter air comming. Then I realize that the November is quite neat and then the December and then the Christmas and all the perfect atmosphere - candles, christmas tree, christmas baking, walking around the square with all the lights, wrapped in a warm coat, sitting with a hot tea and my family while watching fairytales in TV ...

Notice these little things around you! Try to find something that makes you feel happy every dayand enjoy all these beautiful moments <3